i'm busy feeling sorry for myself.i'm coming undone.

alrite.i;m speechless when it comes to today..was halfday.cny.i rmb cny last year it was so good.[i believe yo[u] know why]but unfortunately,i don have u this year.yeah well,had no plans for after school.this is like the first time tat's happened.i would have plans if only....[well,u know...?]yeah.contemplating suicide.not a threat,but its this stoopid idea which is common.doubt ill do such a stoopid thing tho.haiz.

freakshit renovations are going on in my neighbours hse.its testing my patience man.today after school,was supposed to head to town,after joyceh said she din feel like going back to ij(bt).well,tat nv happened.joyceh went off wit nikki n all.den mabel was waiting for her so i headed HOME [home okay?on a half day??] alone.yeah.

ignored her wen she said bye.cant blame me rite?i din mean it tho but i was kinda hurt n stuff la.aiya im jus a whole load'a crap la.anyway i din answer.den at the bus stop.its like we din know each other.well guess cus she was wit her friends.got onto the same bus.was crying but she din see.it doesnt matter.they got of at tiong.hoped to myself tat she'd have fun.well,its obvious she would,she was wit great,fun ppl.

anyway.the rest of the journey hme was a total splat. was saying tat if she cared,she'd call n see if i was okay.she hasnt called yet.n its 315pm.i got hme at 2plus?well so much for tat i dunno why im bothering to say all this wen it really doesnt matter.cus i simply have no rite to feel no more.everything ard her revolves ard 'her'.so wat do i do?onli left with the choice to sit n watch.well.i cant complain.ill get used to it?but i very well know i wont.haiyo!!!well ive spoken too much.ill end here kids.cheers.take care ya'll!!esp. yo[u].hope things wit ur mum clears up.btw,im not irritated anymore u know i won't be for long.heh.cheerious!!


NO GOODBYES-blue
Yeah no more tears, no more goodbyes

Don't you know it's time for me to go
Even though it hurts to see you cry
But don't you know you'll never be alone
If you hold me deep inside (oh yeah)

You know that Iwould rather stay
But now before I turn away
There's one last thing to you
I want to say

[Chorus]
Baby there's no goodbyes
I'll always be right by your side
I may be far away
You know that my heart will stay, with you, always

Now I've pictures in the distance
Even though it seems a million miles
But there'll be no space between us
I'll be there everytime you close you eyes. Yes I will (oh)

You know that I would rather stay
But now before I turn away
There's one last thing to you
I want to say

[Chorus]

I don't wanna say words that people say
Cos when I go away, my love will stay

In the heart of you to help you make it trough
Baby that is why there can be no. No goodbyes

[Chorus x2]

You know what no more goodbyes


mahal kita ako,i ALWAYS WILL.-shattered[self-pity]